not certain of anything, but the past 9 days have been good.
2 days to 2014. my first year in foreign place, not knowing anyone. but i'm glad i made it through, being a better person(i hope i am) than who i am last year.

(i've no idea what zehao is doing and missing russell in this picture)
i met my first every family, GG1 in BAOC during april.
we don't see each other as often, but it always make my day whenever i see any of them.
especially the ones i'm closer to.
from GG1 i found my first few wall of pillars.
willing to hear my rants, help me when i've got problems.
really love them to bits, wouldn't want to start my journey in NP without them.


 

also, i met my first class in NP, TA09.
the most bonded class i've ever had. going for lunch together all the time.
also one of the reasons why i love going to school, because they always make lessons fun and enjoyable. not forgetting the awesome tutors whom make things easier for us too.
however, all good things must come to an end.
we're all in different classes classes. but i know i can still depend on my 3 girls whenever i need help.



then, i spent my first overnight camp in NP with Roran.
and also during this camp, i went through my first ever nightwalk.
not sure what word to use to describe this experience but it would be best if i don't have to go through it again.
yet again, if only i opened more during this camp, it would definitely have been more fun.


soon after, i got the opportunity to meet more people during 20 SCs outing.
another fun bunch of people whom i'm really comfortable with. and i'm glad that i got the opportunity to be part of captain hook, as well as BAton, where i met one of my closest friend now.

and also, i got to plan and execute YTSA Amazing Race 2013 with team burden mouse shit.
it was a great experience. from there, i've learnt about the little things to make an event successful, and how your attitude has to change when in different situation.
also, i got to know myself better and how i have to control my temper.
it made me realized, maybe i'm not cut for planning events.
overall, it was a fulfilling experience except the only regret i have is not doing my best to make sure this event went well.

another unforgettable experience was watch the maine live in front of me.
it was my first concert/gig experience and it was awesome and i can't wait to go for another one.
i did a post on my experience here , so i won't go into details again.



then i met my second group of classmate whom i'm glad i have.
always understanding me because they know i am trying to balance between work and school.
they also make lessons less dreadful.
well, but sad thing is we're gonna split up again in 2 to 3 months' time.

 
then it was my sis' wedding day, which i also did a post here.


also, i took the courage to snipped my hair from waist level to what you see above.
really glad i made the decision because keeping long hair is really a chore.
especially when your hair falls easily, it's almost like samara in your house dropping hair everywhere.
and it kind of disgusts me a little a lot.


last but not least, i went to my last camp of 2013, and probably as a freshie.
BAMP 2013, Pharaoh's alliance with metikus.
really glad i got to be in metikus, fun bunch of people to be with. filled with great people.
super thankful i signed up for bamp, or else i would never get this experience.

2013 was a great journey, despite all the arguments and tears.
really thankful for all the people and experiences whom i've met that made 2013 so fulfilling.
i don't know if i am ready for 2014 though.
last few months of being a freshman, time to start leading people instead of being led.
a brand new experience all over again.
i hope 2014 will be as good as 2013, if not better. 

yesterday was a really happening day at home because my sister got married.
time passed really quickly, i still remember telling my sister to press on because she got stressed out at work and look forward to her wedding day 90 plus days later.
the days soon became to single digit from double digit.
and BAM, wedding day.

all i could say is the whole day felt so surreal.
but i'm glad it's was smooth even though there were a few hiccups here and there.

it feels/sounds silly but i was really really sad yesterday.
i know it's supposed to be a joyous day to me because it's as though my sister has really grown up and is entering a new phase of life where she would be blissful.
and obviously i know that it's not as if my sister will never come back home.
but it just felt as if i am going to lose my sister because i know she won't be coming home to sleep and i know that from now onwards i will have to lock the door when only four people have come home.
basically, it's the lack of her presence but i am really happy for her.
after so long, she finally found that one person that complements her, accepts her and loves her.

still remember when i was younger, when i wasn't able to sleep, i would wake her up and ask her "how i cannot sleep"
and she would be so annoyed because i woke her up from her sleep just to ask her what to do.
i also had this weird thing where i kick when i sleep when i was younger, and my poor sister would have to get kicked by me. 
she was also the one who brought me to my first movie, bought me my first watch(but i lost it during the first week i had them, ..) and many other things which i can't remember at the moment.
i am really grateful that i have her as my sister even though we don't talk much since our age gap is sooooo huge.
but even so, i know she still cares about me because when i told her about my break up, all she said was "but he never bully you right?"
it might not mean much but i felt so loved at that very moment even though there isn't any "love" word in that sentence.

but i think nobody's going to miss her more than my parents.
she's like a gem to them(hey me and my brother are also gems too), always putting my parents ahead of everything.

it is going to take awhile for me to get used to the fact that my sister has moved out.
how i wish i could give her a big massive bear hug(LOL) now.
and it sucks soooo bad knowing that i have to go through this once again when my brother gets married.

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