so i was just talking to my lovely planning team about my future.
and that really got me thinking for awhile. suddenly all those planning i've done back when i was 15 doesn't seem possible and easy anymore.
okay, maybe it is but it is really what i want? i really dont know.
so let me tell you what i thought i am going to do when i was 15.
complete my diploma in accountancy with good gpa of at least 3.6.
go to uni if it's possible, if not go out to work. when time is right, i'll proceed on to acca and be a certified accountant.
and then go back to workforce again, earn as much money as i can, support my family, let my parents have a nice and good retired life.
get married, have child, have a family, give my child what my parents aren't able to give me, let them learn whatever want to, bring them overseas and whatever.
that was what i thought being successful was to me. sounds cliche, but that's really just what i want.
well, it still is my ultimate life goal now. it's the process of achieving it.
do i really want to become an accountant in the future?
to be honest i'm having regrets going into accountancy right now.
reason 1, i dont know why am i specializing in accounting when i am only 17. there is a very high possibility that i am going to stick to being an accountant my whole life.
well you see, if i dont do well enough while pursuing my diploma now, i'll most likely not get to go to local unis. meaning the possibility of me changing my specialization will be low.
i could go to SIM, but i don't come from a very well off family, so how am i going to get the money to pay school fees of $6420 per semester? (number provided by my friend in SIM)
i know there are bank loans, but that would mean high interest and i would have to work my head off to pay off the debts.
so most likely i'll continue by going to ACCA and just continue being an accountant.
reason 2, i am not doing really well in my core module which is accounting.
it's common sense that if i can't do well in accounting, i can't be an accountant right.
reason 3, who knows if there will be high demand for accountants in the future.
next time if everything is going to be done by technology and accountants are not needed anymore.
there goes my life, what am i going to do?
a lot of people asked me if i had POA background when i told them im in acountancy.
and nope, i don't. i don't take POA. before my first lecture in accounting, i had absolutely no idea what is liabilities, owner's equity.
so people often ask me why? so why did you choose to come in accountancy.
nope, i don't know. it was just a goal i wanted to achieve when i was 15.
and yes i did manage to achieve it, therefore i am where i am now. but i don't really know am i doing this because i really have interest in it or because it is a goal a stupid ignorant jaclyn at the age of 15 set?
now that i think of it, why didn't i look at other courses before i set my eye on accountancy.
Tourism, business studies, ilscm or even courses of other school.
it just doesn't make any sense to me right now.
how ignorant and narrow sighted am i when i was 15?
i wished someone told me about all these before i submitted my choices.
helping me weigh my choices, instead of me having to find out about all these horrible things myself right now.
i can't possibly change my course now.
first of all, i'm going to place huge burden on my mother because of school fees, and also i promised her i'll graduate out of NP with an accounting diploma.
i really just hope and pray that what i am pursuing now is the right choice for me.
simply because i want to support my family, and not place anymore burden to them.